can you see me from the inside?

On the outside my hair is gone
and my head is bald
on the inside I have the memories
of sitting in the chair watching the IV drip
On the outside my breasts are scarred
and the wounds are fresh
on the inside my cancer has been removed
by the surgeon’s delicate hands
On the outside my fingernails and toenails
are falling off and painful
on the inside my cells are dying at
the expense of killing the cancer
on the outside my face has a smile
and I am happy and confident
on the inside I am thinking about
my survival rate and my bucket list
when you look at me, you see
bags under my eyes
and new wrinkles are starting to appear
but my spirit is eternal
and my soul is immortal
My heart is full of love
that the cancer cannot touch
Will I still be here to watch my husband
walk my daughter down the isle?
Will I watch my son grown into a man?
Will I be able to hold my newborn grandchild?
This journey has changed my life forever
I will never be the same person
I will cherish every sunrise
I will tell my family and friends
I love them
and how much thy mean to me
I will hug a little longer
laugh a little harder
and try to make a difference
in the world around me
and the people that surround me
and spend more time
with my Maker
and the Creator of Life
with my family and friends
and I won’t look back at yesterday
because today is all I have

1 Samuel 16:7 "God does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart."