oh crap

i feel like crap. matts sick and the doctor gave him antibiotics. im getting sick again. i got bad post nasal drip and chest congestion. though i should get my period tomorrow. i do tend to get sick when i get it. the antibiotics made matt sick to his stomach so we didnt really get to do anything at all. i gotta buy boxes tomorrow to put all my christmas stuff in. that is my mission after matt leaves for work. to get the christmas stuff put away. matt slept on the couch all afternoon so i didnt get anything done.

i have hardly slept at all the last few days so i have been cranky. im uncomfortable because my acid reflux is bad and i can afford the antiacid. the generic for it costs 125 for a 30 supply. since i have no insurance it really sucks. ive been popping tums like they are going out of style. my birth control is 60 for one month. but that i have to have because the last thing i need right now is a baby. i cant afford the ambien so i am suffering becuase i cant afford it. it really sucks not having insurance. gee and matt wonders why i have been such a bitch as of late.

i made a vow where i am going to try to write in here everyday. i need to write more and get more of my thoughts out of my head.see how well i do. i need to make some me time each day to do it. i have to stay dedicated to doing it if i am going to better help myself. i think these next few months are going to be interesting and i need to document my journey. im still being optimistic about this year. *keeps fingers crossed*