ggggrrrrr

there are just some days when i feel that things just arent going the way i planned or the way i want them to. i just dont feel like i am going to get very far with this job. i keep getting snapped at by my manager. no one seems to care about answering my questions. i just feel like i’m not going anywhere. i dont know what to make of the whole situtation either. i cant even attempt to explain it all either.i just feel like all of my thoughts are so jumbled up and i’m kinda confused about it all. i bought another journal to try writing in while i am at work. sometimes i get so overwhelmed that i need a place to release it. im gonna just try to write it out if time permits while i am at work. i need to do something.i feel like no wants to take me seriously. i always get told that i am not ready for anything else. i’m tired of hoping and waiting for a position in another branch to open up. i’m tired of being put off. i would like to just be able to continue with my life. not sure that it is going to happen. feel so frustrated.

i just realized how stupid matts sister really is. shes staying with mr dickhead…shes keeping the lazy bastard. what the hell seriously? i gotta waste good money on an asshole who refuses to get a better job. who would honesty keep a loser like that around? wouldn’t you want to get on with the next step in your life and get married and settled down with a place of your own? maybe i just see it that way because its what matt and i have managed to do. idk. i just feel the loser needs to go.