You Had Me At Hello

I just threw a lot of my past away.
Like some intense urge. necessity.

I cleaned out my room instensely. Now, I have a room that I love being in. In fact, I sit here and can’t wait to finish writing this entry so I can go sit in my room. It’s complete. Mini-library by my bed. Audrey Hepburn shrine above my desk. Strobe light for random solo dance parties. Collages of photos. Jelly beans. Organized desk. It is lovely.

Plus I made some good money at a garage sale this morning. Course, my car tire is ready to go flat. Wires are showing. I want to be done with these meaningless burdens.

And I just burned my arm with boiling oil. No… it was not on purpose. I was a clumsy, bumbling cook. Like Inspector Clouseau making fries… Nothing like feeling the skin on your arm making you feel like you put it in acid. Crazy deceptive arm. I am tough shit.

Except for the fact I just cried nonstop for the entire last half hour of Jerry Maguire.

“I’m not letting you get rid of me. How about that?”

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September 28, 2003

i need to see that movie.

what coke said.

September 28, 2003

Well I’m glad you like your room now…I wanna see the Audrey shrine!!!

i seem to always burn myself when baking cupcakes. i hope your wound heals well and soon. -heathermariestudebaker

September 28, 2003

dominican lou on snl also liked jerry maguire. i think he may have cried even. and good job on the room, it takes a strong will to completely clean out your room. i look forward to that day in my life.

September 28, 2003

my room needs a clean. and i’ve only been here a few weeks.

September 28, 2003

I loved Tom Cruise in that movie..it’s my favorite with him..he’s my favorite actor…that movie is so good..and I cry everytime I see it. My room needs cleaned…wanna come over? take care *hugs*

September 29, 2003

yeah, again… wish i had a room. i think i’ll forgo shitting and wish in both hands. won’t be any worse off. you are tough shit. don’t let anyone/thing tell you any different. strong enough to be weak. go watch trigun already.

September 29, 2003

ryn: forget dough. i need money. unless we’re gonna cook the dough and sell cookies… which isn’t a bad idea. not bad at all in fact. anyway, hannah’s got shit to sell too. i’m thinking of getting rid of my comics. god, i must be desparate.

September 29, 2003

le sigh. i love you david. and am glad you have a clean room…..mine on the other hand…..

September 29, 2003

i was eating skittles, and it was intensely pleasurable. then i bit my cheek, and it was intensely suck-ass.

Hello there stranger. 🙂

September 30, 2003

your ryn note is so fcking correct i can’t even believe it.

I was never a fan of Count Chocula cereal..thought it was kinda gross actually…thanks for the note. *hugs* alaina joann *nsi..although when I started writing this note I was*

that pact sounds good. and as for not seeing radiohead, i personally would have found the money to pay my friend back. but i guess things work out weirdly because that’s exactly what i’m doing. Matt

October 2, 2003

RYN: AWWWW Thank You. hehe 🙂

October 10, 2003

Strongbad: I thinks i saw dat film onces.

October 14, 2003

just wanted to say hello b/c I haven’t heard from you in a few days.

October 19, 2003

oh man david i need to get on the ball about sending those CDs i can’t send them yet because i totally and completely broke my brotha’s burner and we have to wait until that gets fixed but i’ll totally send both CDs to david’s hizzy love, coke

October 19, 2003

RYN: not that I could see, but it was the HS game, so shouldnt have come cuz she didnt go to the HS. sorry david. 🙁

October 19, 2003

Ah, Jerry Maguire…fine, fine movie

October 19, 2003

okay, i wish i could say i thought of jerry maguire when i read the title, but all i got was a night at the roxbury. that movie has tainted a fantastic moviemoment. but in a strangely good way.

yo yo.. why no updates?? >>

October 23, 2003

ryn: woooah. trippy. i didn’t even look at the picture at the bottom of your main page. i can’t remember how i got here … followed a note on another diary? what are the odds?

October 23, 2003

Jerry Maguire was on tv today…I watched part of it…I’ve never had anybody..especially a girl..I think I’d die if that ever happened to me…I can barely take the old yucky men doing it to me. *hugs*

October 26, 2003

I wish you’d write an entry to let me know how you’re doing. Thanks for the note you left. *hugs* alaina joann

July 19, 2012

The “meaningless burdens” don’t stop until there is no more breath left in our bodies, me thinks.