“I’m So Lonely…”
I failed another friend. I lost him. he left us all. he was suffering for so long. and we. we who were supposed to be the greatest group of friends ever. we left him alone.
And now he’s gone.
from the back of your big brown eyes
i knew you’d be gone as soon as you could
and i hoped you would
we could see that you weren’t yourself
and the lines on your face did tell
it’s just as well
you’d never be yourself again
saw you last night
dance by the light of the moon
stars in your eyes
free from the life that you knew
you’re the magic that holds the sky up from the ground
you’re the breath that blows these cool winds ’round
trading places with an angel now
saw you last night
dance by the light of the moon
stars in your eyes
free from the life that you knew
saw you last night
stars in the sky
smiled in my room
I’m sorry.
This is beautiful. I’m sorry for your loss.
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sometimes i think the only thing you can do is care about people, even if you can’t change things… hang in there. and i hope you’re doing okay.
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oh david. i talked to andy a couple of days ago and he was in so much pain. i’m doing my best to be there for him. i did get to meet sebby, i’m not sure if you knew that? on the last day i was in calif. he and his brother came over, specifically because he wanted to meet me before i left. i didn’t even know him that well, but i’m glad i had that opportunity. i really enjoyed that day.
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it’s not your fault. not that anyone ever believes it when you tell them that. i just hope you’re ok.
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speaking of pictures of sebby and andy, i tried going to your photo site not long ago and it didn’t seem to work anymore. not the main site, but the page with the older pictures.
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also, i just want to say — andy seems like he has this weird feeling that nobody wants to listen to him talk about certain things (that isn’t just goofing around or joking, i guess, but worries, etc) so he ends up talking to me about them, which is fine, but sometimes unhealthy as well, seeing as how we aren’t “together” anymore. plus i didn’t know sebby very well…
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… i know that he desperately wants to talk to someone about sebby. and, i’m not exaggerating with “desperately.” and i just wanted to know, if you don’t find it too weird to tell me, how andy’s doing when you see him (since youve seen him lately). has he been able to talk about anything? sorry if this is a really awkward thing to ask. also: what is that “night stand” video on your myspace?
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this sounds so cliched, but i’m sorry for your loss…
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This kind of thing is so hard to make sense of. I don’t think he would blame you or his other friends for anything though. You can only do so much for someone you care about, and it’s just impossible to know if there’s anything more you could have done. I hope you’re feeling better about it though.
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ryn: I’d be pretty happy to pass the bar exam myself. I feel like I’ve wasted so much time already that by getting a Harvard degree, it would somehow pave over the last 22 years of doing nothing. It’s probably unrealistic, and I’m kind of okay with that.
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ryn: your rebuttal is the one thing I’ve been caught up on throughout trying to write that paper. I feel like since there’s no proof that Moses existed, and it’s almost a given that his persona has been aggrandized and embellished over time, it doesn’t matter if he was real because the Jews have made him into the person they need him to be in order to fit into their civilization. that kind of….
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… ruins the necessity of his existence from a religious perspective, but the Jews claim Israel as their homeland based on the events revolving around Moses, a claim that can’t be valid if neither he nor the events like the exodus were never real in the first place. it’s a circle though, because if he didn’t exist then the religion has no foundation either.
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also, there are various archaeological things that suggest there was a large population of foreigners in egpyt who may or may not have been slaves at the time the hebrews were said to have been there, but nothing specifically says it was the hebrews. there is mention of people in egypt called habiru (or hapiru,) but that was just a generic term back then for homeless desert people.
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i just today discovered that your title is an e.e. poe reference. here i was thinking it was just a funny image you made up… (mine’s vaguely a group-x reference. sophisticated much?)
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ryn: that’s so awesome about the play! i’m guessing it’s local? let me know. maybe i can come see it…
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