Time to Relax Now…??

One of the first things I did yesterday morning was ring back my doctor to talk to her again and make sure that I knew what is going on. It only took her 24 hours toget back to me, but hey right now I’m feeling a lot better about it! She rang me this morning and we had a great chat about the whole cycle and what is next. Once I off the phone to the doctor my lovely nurse rang me. SHE IS AMAZING. Leah was great and went over everything with me again. I’m so nervous about the whole cycle/s and she is very mind soothing. The paper work came in the mail and I just spend half an hour reading over all the little bits and making sure that I know everything that is going on. Leah highlighted everything that I should know and even all the parts that I think she knew I was going to have questions about. I’m back into the hospital tomorrow to have my teaching on how to use my Puregon Pen for my FSH. Not sure when I get all the meds but I’m thinking it will about day 2 or 3 of my next cycle that I will have to go back in have a ultrasound and they will then have my meds and my bill ready 🙂 Don’t you love how they go hand in hand together?

Matt is all booked for his sperm to be frozen in the sperm bank on friday. More so just for a back up but I have a feeling that we will be needing to use it a lot with him working away so much. Now every time he is home he will need to go and leave a sample just so that we know we have some back up. My cycle days have been anywhere from 28 to 35 days long so I’m unsure as to when this new cycle is going to start seeing that I’m on day 16. At the most it is going to 2 weeks and it seems to have gone so fast now and we are almost at the starting gates so to speak.

You know what I find really funny? Remember back in 2005 they wouldn’t let me do anymore because my weight was so high? Well here I am at 109 kilos, I got pregnant with Callum at 137 kilos, thats a differnce of 28 kilos and I feel so much more heathly and yet we are heading down the path of IUI’s? I know Matt’s sperm isn’t the best but every other time it was very "you have to lose weight, it’s your weight that is stopping you from getting pregnant." Now here we are and BMI is 36 right now. So much more better when I did fall pregnant. Women with a BMI of over 35 do find it harder to fall pregnant natually, and also with help but it’s do able because we have done it that way and my BMI back then was 45 as I remember and the local hospital wouldn’t take me for delievery because there cut off BMI range was 42. Which in the ended up being for the best.

So now I’m just trying to look forward. I have been doing a lot of thinking as to what kind of care I would like in this pregnancy and yes I do find myself positive in the fact that yes we will become pregnant from doing this, but it happen on the first try I’m thinking it will be the third one. To be honest I’m leading towards just going public again. If I was to have a prem baby again I want to feel safe in the fact that the Hospital can handle that. However I am planning to pay for my own midwife and look at the option of a home birth. I was thinking that planning for home birth maybe the way to go, and all systems would be go once I get over 36 weeks I would be feeling about it. But before 36 weeks I would be in hospital. I think ill worry about all of that once we are pregnant 😛

You know what…I think I’m starting to relax more now about it. I guess in my head I’m waiting for the IVF doctor to ring me and tell me that no, Kellie your just to fat to do anything go and lose somemore weight. To be honest I don’t think she would say that this time…well not just to yet.

Yes my diary is going to boring, it’s going to be about IVF and me stressing with trying to get pregnant…