No More, No More

After a long talks last night with Matt, we think that it’s best that we stop Tring to have a baby. No more Hospital vists, no more ultra Sounds, No more Clomid, No more broken Hearts and Dreams. I just need to stop. Im dying on the inside.The best of me went too. Im not me anymore. I lost myself when I lost the baby. Im moody, Im no fun. I don’t smile anymore. Im not happy. I’m not bubbly anymore. Somewhere deep down is my old self and I need to find that girl again.

Lvu Kellie

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December 8, 2002

Some people have found themselves pregnant after they gave up hope on medical intervention and relaxed. Maybe you will be one of those lucky people. I wish the best for you and hope whatever sorrow you are feeling is eased soon.

December 8, 2002

I am so sorry to hear that, and as the above noter said I do belive it sometimes happens when you stop trying and don’t worry about it.

December 8, 2002

Don’t listen to anyone but yourself, you know best. Relax and /do/ try and find that person inside. I know how hard this is, believe me – *hugs tight* you know best. — Babs

December 8, 2002

Yes, you need to give yourself some time. Be together for a while, find the person you were before. I know it’s hard, you have a dream and it’s been taken away. You need to give your body and mind time to heal. You have the right to feel moody and miserable. You also have the right to feel happy and to laugh. {{{Hugs}}}

{hugs} I can’t even begin to imagine how hard this is on you. Hang in there — and like the first noter said, hopefully you’ll have a little miracle in no time. Ryn: Instead of placing in a border size type and colour, just leave it blank.

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I remember that feeling all to well, I did not loose a child – I lost my dream of ever having one. After trying to get pregnant for 4 months we found out my husband has zero sperm. I went into depression and felt just as you’ve been describing – I eventually went to counseling, which helped tremendously. I know that noone can say anything to make you feel better. Hang in there! *hugs*

January 23, 2003

Hopefully this decision gave you a little bit of peace for awhile.