My Next Baby Part Six

October has just seemed to fly by.

Did you know it’s almost christmas? Yes I know Christmas!

Well today, 6 years ago I lost my first baby. It was a whirl win year back in 2002. I had my first D&C after learning that I had yes most in fact have PCOS. It was also the year that Matt and I started treatment. It was my fouth cycle of Clomid and I got the faintest line on a pregnancy test. I remember feeling on top of the world. I remember driving into the hospital to have a blood test done.

I felt so robbed of Motherhood and what could have been waiting for us to find. My blood tests only found low levels of HCG in my system, my second blood test was higher, but my third dropped. We both wanted to be somewhere where it felt like home, we got into the car and found ourselves in Portland.

Today 6 years later, you are more then wondering why I’m talking about this…Well I always remember it, every mother does. But today seems to be more speical.

I had my second IUI today. With my favorite nurse. I had strong ovulation pains. And yes I do believe in Fate.