My Next Baby Part Seven

I went for my ultrasound this morning, not good news. I have a 4.5cm cyst on my right ovary. Not sure where it has come from, if it is the puregon or if it had something to do with no ovualtion last month. Feeling very down about it all and it just feels like when it comes to having a second child it’s not really working towards an answer or a baby. I feel very alone about it all, and don’t have anyone to just cry too or have understand how I feel. The whole waiting thing is just killing me. I am meant to go back on Monday for another ultrasound to see if the cyst is growing if it is from the puregon when more then likely it will be bigger and with a bit of hope it should be gone once I get my period and a another ultrasound will be done on day 2 of my cycle.Im hoping this is the case, then I know I’m going to need a break from this.

I don’t feel like I have time to waste, I know I’m still in my 20’s, but I just don’t want to waste anymore time. I feel like 5 years is way to much, now I wish that I had of got onto my weight and having another baby a lot more soonier. I don’t know if I should be walking away from this, or staying strong? I have no idea. I know I want to walk away because that just seems to be the easy way out. A big part of me is starting to think that maybe this is it. Maybe Callum is my only child and I’m not lucky enough to be able to have anymore. I just don’t know anymore.