In Our Arms

I feel like a tap. My boobs just drop milk all the time. More so when we are at the hospital seeing Callum, and even more so when he crys. My feelings are all over the place. I cry then laugh, then cry, then laugh. What a real roller coaster ride this has been. In the week that Callum was born, it was a year from the time that we lost our first child and on the 31 of october was my past brothers birthday. He would have been 13. It’s been a ruff week.

Now I know that this sounds wired but im tring to get back to work. I need to keep my mind down and keep working. I know that having to get up everyday and go to work, will make the time go much faster. Work is still tring to work something out for me.

I got very upset yesterday at the Hospital. For days we have been waiting for the lights (uv blue lights) to come off Callum so that we could have a cuddle. Finally yesterday they where off. He doesn’t need them anymore at this time. So I asked for a cuddle and the nurse ( a younger girl) snapped back at me and said no. I ran out and left. The hospital is in the city, we live in the country. It’s a 40 – 45 minute drive in. I had only had a little cuddle from the time that he moved him to a new room. Matt hasn’t even had a cuddle. All we wanted was a cuddle. That was all.

We returned in the afternoon and the same nurse was still on, but was about to leave and the new nurse was about to start. Once again I asked for a cuddle. The first nurse once again said no, so I snapped back that she should just go back to school because prem babies to need cuddles. They need to be touch and cuddle, just like a pre-term or full term baby. That this is our baby and that Matt hasn’t had a cuddle at all. So I asked how she would feel if that was her in our shoes. The nurse just starting came over and told her the same thing that I had. We finally got a cuddle :o)

In Our Arms

Lvu Kell

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He is so sweet and so tiny! I’m glad you finally got a cuddle, nurses aren’t the most patient of people :o( *hugs*

grrr…some nurses arent the most sensitive of people. :o( at least you finally got your kangaroo care time!!! :o) im sure callum loved it too!

I would have been furious!! I would have demanded, just like you did. I don’t know how you do it…I can’t imagine leaving my baby in the hospital:( I hope he gets to leave there soon.

I wouldnt have put up with that. Sweetie he is your son. Next time go above her head. What a wench! He is adorable. Congrats again.

November 4, 2003

Good for you for standing up for yourself! What a beautiful boy, and a beautiful moment. 🙂 ~:) Babs

November 4, 2003

i can’t beleive the nurse was like that what a bitch!!! glad you got your cuddles tho!!!

November 4, 2003

What a precious little angel!!AWW. How dare that nurse tell you not to hold your child?!?! That’s unbeleivable.. Iv’e heard that kangaroo cuddles are the best thing for prem babies. take care

That nurse definately needed a reality check. I am glad that you stood your ground. Way to go Mommy! Callum needs you to fight for his right to cuddle. I am sure he is wondering whats up… Have you talked to any doctors about kangaroo care? (skin to skin contact time) It’s supposed to help premature babies leave their isolettes sooner. Plus if you are breastfeeding it will help with milk.

November 5, 2003

I’m so glad you stood your ground and got to hold him. He is absolutely precious!

November 5, 2003

hes so teeny! Im glad you all got to cuddle him. that nurse was nasty and should reconsider her choice of proffesion. thanx for sharing the pics!(((hugs))))

November 5, 2003

AWWWWWWWWWWW congrats and im so glad that everything is okay he is so adorable and tiny AWWWW im gonna cry 🙂

WOW I’m so happy you got to hold him. Oh my goodness that is just so wonderful~

November 6, 2003

I am glad that things are starting to look better. I know that know matter how bad a day you have, holding something that sweet and trusting can make it all better. Keep your chin up! When he’s running around like crazy, coloring walls you’ll wish for these days again. I’ll be thinking about you!

November 6, 2003

Congratulations on your little son. He is so precious! I had 2 premature sons (31 wks and 27wks) and know exactly how you felt when they wouldn’t let you cuddle Callum. Through the time in Neo Nates we came across a few rude nurses but also some amazing ones that I will always remember. Isn’t that first cuddle (after waiting for so long) amazing? Best wishes 🙂

November 6, 2003

what a nasty nurse! I am glad you got to cuddle with him for awhile!

November 9, 2003

Aww hunny I’ve just been catching up on your diary! Congrats BIG TIME. What a handsome little man you have there. Hope all goes well and that you can bring him home as soon as possible. I’m so happy for you hun. Welcome to the mothers club 🙂

Cuddles make the world a better place. Good for you and Matt. Dear me, that is a teeeeensy baby! And a blondie boy! ((cuddles)) to you!

He is so beautiful.

November 11, 2003

{{{{}}}} glad you GOT the time! i can’t believe she wouldn’t think about them needing that touch oy ~ajaye

What a NASTY NASTY NURSE 🙁 I’m glad you stood your ground and got what you wanted! GOOD FOR YOU!

January 9, 2004

that nurse sounds like a bytch….