Donor

Did I ever think that I would be 41 and back on the TTC ride? Nope never.

Here I am.

Things are very different this time, husband had a vasectomy 7 years ago, we had it reversed in late March this year. It’s failed, no sperm have returned, more than likely scarred over. That’s been a hard one to process, sperm are an important factor.

Before we even looked at surgery, I found a group on Facebook about sperm donation. Turns out it’s a big thing. We did our first cycle in June with donor sperm, unsuccessful this cycle, awaiting to start the next.

If this is sounding exciting, I don’t mean it to be. I was a nervous wreck. We opted to go NI – which means sex for better odds. To me, it just sounds odd. The whole thing. We have two donors, for better odds. Seeing that it is a numbers game after all.

That’s why I have come back here, my friends have no idea, to be honest they haven’t been overly supportive with the whole “We want another baby” thing. Think I just needed a place that I can come to and let out what is swimming in my mind.

I don’t expect any comments, but for some reason if anyone is reading this, please no hate. My heart and head are fragile already.