All Aboard

I’m feeling a bit bummed this morning still. While I was at work last night I started to get my period. We have a appt with the IVF doctors on Tuesday and so here is my period a week before I would really like it to be here. So now it means we will have to wait a full month before I cant start any treatment. I know I should just be happy that it’s coming regalur and the fact now that I can pin point it a week before it comes now. But still I’m only human and bugger I was just hoping and I really was that maybe it would sway my way. All of this feels really wried, maybe because we have done it before and yet again here I am almost the same spot of mind while awaiting Callum’s pregnancy. So I’m just feeling a bit blah about it all right now. Why didn’t someone remind me about this roller coaster ride before I got back on it??

Went and had all my blood work done yesterday before work. Two hours later and three lots of blood I finially got out the door. I had no idea it was a full testing for my remission diabetes. I knew the IVF doc wanted a full blood set but I didn’t think she ordered the diabetes one too. As it turns out the nursing staff where wonderful and we sat around and chatted while I had my two hours to kill. So that is my first step having got that done now, Matt just has his test and then we have the appt with the Nurses for the refresher course about the meds and needles. I know the one month doesn’t sound like much to you all, but when you have been awaiting since late 2005 to be able to get back on IVF a month is a month.

I was told back in late 2005 simply no they wont do it. With my miscarriage, my weight it was to much and I was turned down. It wasn’t till June 2006 that I got my bum into gear about my lap band and then I had a wait a year for that. And of course by Jan 2007 I had type 2 diabetes which was a interesting 6 months before I went into remission for them. I waited out my first year post op for my band to be settled in nicely and it has done it’s job and I have lost just on 60 kilos. So here I am 2008 three years later. Its taken me three years to this point so I guess what is another month right? Well first off I know the next three cycles nothing is going to happen. I’ve got three months with meds to play with, ultrasounds to see how many eggs i’m making and making sure that we only get the good ones and the fact that I have this fear of twins. I know that is going to take at least two months to get the meds rights for ovulation. Then we have to factor in that Matt is going away Overseas soon for work for aleast a month. I guess a good point is he will be away when the med levels are being tested.

Oh and the twin thing, its a fear because of my weight loss that they will over stimulate me, Ill become pregnant with twins and then go right down the path of gestational diabetes (which is going to happen in any pregnancy for me) and then me having two very prem babies again (Callum was born at 31 weeks I was only 7 months pregnant). Thats why we have opped for the ART nurses this time and them doing my meds because each month ill be in for 2 to 3 ulrtasounds to look what is happening and making sure (well trying our best) not to let my ovuaries go nutz.

Now I feel somewhat better getting that all out of me!

We are going away this weekend, just the three of us up to daylesford for two nights and over to Mt Macedon for Callum to have a play in the snow. Oh yeah before you all think its a dirty weekend, its not. Well now it’s not, mat has a sperm test and I have my period yeah nice huh!! Gee on day will get the timing right LOL