6/30/06

I’m finally starting to feel very at peace with myself now. I know that we only moved two days ago and how on earth could anyone feel settled so soon after moving, but really I am. It’s not just the whole moving, but the moving to Portland, getting away from the evil girls at playgroup, moving away from my Mother. Feeling very at peace with living in the country and wanting to raise Callum up here. I havn’t felt this good  in a long, long time.

I joined a knitting community. It’s not a local based group, they are back in the city, still its nice to read over what comes in my inbox. Typing about inboxes, I found a local lady that has two children in the sameish age group as Callum. We have been emailing back and forth for a couple of days. Most of it was done before we moved. Wit hthe ball being my court I need to email her back. I’m very nervous. I know I shouldn’t judge this lady by the last group I went too, however I’m finding it very hard not to. I just remember the way that they made me feel. I felt like a horrorable Mother. To the point that I shouldn’t be a Mother. Just a general dislike all around me. But now I see that, it’s just them, and just like any person, I too have a lot of give this world. So what if I don’t "fit" there group. I to will find my space and I’ll be happy. In the years that I have been on this earth, it’s only now that I see how wrong some people can be. I don’t need to something I’m not. More to the point, I wasn’t going to become a ass kissing bitch. I do have my own opinion and don’t base it on what the "leader" wants. I think I have said enough about that now.

We are mostly all unpacked. It’s just the front room that has some boxes with odds and ends in them. We are both hoping to make the front room into a guest room, for when we have people stay over. Callums room looks very bare, because the room is so big. It’s just his bed and change table in there. His chest fits into the buit in robe really well so we put it in there for him. I would like to get him a bedside table and I need to find where his black board is too..

Kellie

….oh the net is on here too!! woohoo