11/12/08

I went for my blood test yesterday to see if I had ovulated. They rang his morning to inform me that no I ddin’t ovulate in this last cycle and that now because we are coming up to Christmas they wont doing anymore cycles. The nurse informed me that I needed to see the doctor and work out what is going to be happening. I asked to see my doctor and the nurse wanted to know why me as a public wanting to see a private doctor. I have always been private, but been having my treatment at a public teaching hospital, because if my inferility can help and teach another person how to a make and help another persons dreams come true then I would like to think that I had some part of that. This whole time I have been paying private prices but been seen as a public. My doctor has no idea what been going on. And to make matters worse she is overseas.

I’ll be moving my treatment to back over the consultanting rooms. I now feel like a sitting duck just waiting for my period to start, knowing that there isn’t anyway that I could be pregnant. All I can hope for is that once she gets back from overseas she will see me and I will be able to get some understanfing as to what went wrong. I don’t want to do anymore IUI cycles, and I’ll be asking for IVF because at least then I know how many eggs I have and what is going on every step of the way.

Just to top it off, there even a more good chance that last cycle, I didn’t ovulate because the nurse gave me the wrong dates to do my injection and blood test, so now the blood test would have been wrong.

I don’t think we will be able to do anything till at least Febuary of next year.

Im sad and alone and I cant stop crying