12/03/2012

 I realize my pictures are not showing up. I apologize. Copy and paste from my smart phone failed. Lesson learned. I will redo the entries and do something for today later. I am in sort of a bad funk and I’m sorting out why and how to fix it. I realized that I’m not happy. I can only make the best of it, but I’m frustrated to tears. I have moments of fleeting happiness and that isn’t enough for me. It’s harder for me to disguise my disdain and irritations. I’m terribly moody, uncensored and inappropriate. I’m so stressed that I smoked at work today. I hate smoking. I hate the smell, the taste, the smoke. It isn’t me. But I sure did smoke one today. I don’t know where I’m going, but I’ll be honest – I don’t like how it’s coming together