a time not too far away

A happier time and place has never seemed so desirable and so distant at the same time. I admire the fortune of others only to say inside, this will be me one day. Lately, I have been merely sliding into the shoes of those I want to switch places with. These recent time jumps are circumstantial to my current life. I am close to starting the life I want, but getting there has seemed like ages. I have a reasonable idea of where I want to be when that time comes, I just hope it will happen soon. The majority of these internal storms stem from a career I will be happy with, the woman I would like to spend it with, and the place in which I want this to happen. I speak in the future because my thoughts are introductory in nature and haphazard at best. I want, but I can’t have until the time is right. I can want at my pleasure, but when one wants, one must work hard. The work that goes into the final product of a wish or dream we can only imagine at one time, derives from the passion we exude, the obstacles we overcome, and the collective balance that helps us live in one piece.

 Today, it’s the couples on television that I unfortunately venerate despite their lack of authenticity. These couples make it easy for one who is looming on the verge of moving to the next level with his life, his love, and his old self. I can adore these couples and point with a fickle finger towards the ones I want to be like them when I grow up. I want my girlfriend and I to become these type of people, living this type of life, in that sort of world. Television is meant to entertain and is far from purposely trying to reveal any certain truisms unless on purpose. With this being the case, I of course take a step back into reality and perhaps pinpoint likelihoods in which I could live by and realities that could better myself. One day I’d enjoy the simple, peaceful middle class life with a gentle and caring wife, and on other days the life of opulence seems more likely. These are the conflicts in which make the future so unattainable, yet exciting at the same time. Life runs on an infinite time wheel, and when it’s my time to rise above the life I have now onto something new, I will be ready…