Feb. 5, 2014 – Step by Step

 Step by Step

Wednesday, Feb. 5, 2014 

Today, I will remember that, as a drinking alcoholic, I was my own judge, jury and executioner. In giving my all to whiskey, I judged myself to be unworthy of anything better, of feeling anything good. I deemed myself guilty of deserving all which active alcoholism inflicted on me – emptiness, loneliness, self-destruction, anger, selfishness, desperation, fear. And I executed the judgment that I should die as I lived – then. But a lifeline was thrown my way, and it led me to Alcoholics Anonymous. Now, as a recovering alcoholic, I’ve surrendered the roles of judge, jury and executioner to the only Power that can impose judgment. And because I respect that Authority highly, this day, I will not play with my recovery by yielding it to anyone or anything. Today, I am worthy of more by the grace of God and AA. And our common journey continues. Step by step. – Chris M., 2014