Passing Through

My Cousin just passed away. I found about 5 10 minutes ago. She had a stroke on Sunday afternoon (2/5) and a couple minutes later she went into a coma. I haven’t known too many people to pass away. My  great grandfather passed away in May of 1998 and My grandfather passed away in April of 2001. I went to college with a person who passed a week before school was to start. He drowned while trying to swim in the pool and my Godmother’s husband passed away back in the really early 1990’s.

I’ve never been to a funeral before so I really don’t know what to expect. I’m nervous about attending. My cousin’s son just went to college from Christmas break so I know this is going to be hard on him. His dad is a real jerk and is pretty mean, he’s decent around extended family but when it comes to his own, there is a lot of tension. I feel that she is in a good place right now, not that she had a rough life, but when you come from a 3rd world country to the US things can be pretty tough. She purchased a home for only $29K and made it. Lucky her, we’re still struggling.

I hope this isn’t an indication of how this year is going to be because if it is, then I definately don’t want to be in it. I can’t help but wonder that we’re all just literally passing through earth. A body of molecules controlled by our central nervous system. It really puts things in perspective, that quote about not being a player in life and sitting on the sidelines watching all the action is true. You really have to be active in your destiny and see what life can bring you. When I was younger I always wished that I would die and now I’m so glad that I did not. Its a good thing God doesn’t always give us what we ask for because I don’t know what I would do. I guess I’m going through an introspection on life right now.