I’ve Got a Crush on You

I saw my crush this morning (I guess it seems like I have lots of crushes and I crush a lot.) He’s about 6′, sandy blonde hair, and blue eyes. He’s so handsome. We talked for a few this morning and I told him that I thought his eyes are pretty and he said so are mine. We talked about our plans for the weekend and neither of us has anything planned but I guess it’s short notice to plan something.  I can’t wait to see him again. Whenever we talk I wish that the world would stand still.

I have tentative plans for lunch with another friend today. He’s 25, cute, about 5’6 and has braces. According to him I always make his day when I smile at him. He skipped the party we threw on Sunday and didn’t apologize or give any regrets. Both of them are so handsome and I always look forward to seeing them.

Another guy I like has a girlfriend, we’ve been down this road before I jsut clammed up one day and stopped talking to him. I really miss him and I told him. I miss our rendouvez. in the mornings.

Is there really one person out there for me? Where is he? I’m really getting tired of waiting. I think I’ve dated just about every type of man out there and still I haven’t found him. I really want to move someplace (most likely Georgia) where I know no one and no one knows me and I can have a fresh start and be whoever I want to be without these insecurities I have.

I really like having options or knowing that of the prospects I have I’d have one to want me that I want back. I really don’t want to grow old and alone. That’s my biggest fear (other than dying.)