History Repeats But I Learned This Already

So I decided to let Robert sweat it out. I didn’t talk to him on the phone since last week Sunday and I haven’t seen him since Tuesday. I really wanted to hang out with him but he didn’t seem too up to it, maybe because he was sick, unfortunately I take everything personal. He asked me to call him on Tuesday but since I was at my friends house for the night and my cell phone service is suspended until I pay my bill I told him I would not. Anyhow, Robert has class Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. He didn’t go to class Monday because he was sick so he went Tuesday to prepare for his test on Wednesday. I did not call him on Tuesday because of the phone and I didn’t call him Wednesday because he had a test Thursday and I didn’t want him to be distracted.

I got home late Thursday from the gym so I showered and went to bed and I also got home late Friday, actually 2am Saturday morning. I saw that I have a message on my home phone so I checked and he called me just after 6:30pm Friday. I returned his call Saturday afternoon (I had to go to the Police Station to file a fraud report, can you believe I was there for 3 hours?) He didn’t seem mad but he seemed disappointed and took it personal that I didn’t reach out to him. He kept asking if everything is okay and if we’re okay and he went on about how he doesn’t understand females. Maybe I should drop the act, but then again, sometimes I wonder if he’s just using me. I don’t know if he asks me out to lunch because he’s broke or because he really wants to spend time with me and we usually spend weekends together, but I seem to always open my wallet and I’m always end up broke. I understand he’s still getting his stuff together but its been almost 6 months.

I purchased the pocket version of He’s Just Not In To You and a lot of the information makes sense, if he doesn’t call he may not be thinking about you but then again, with the popularity of cell phones its almost hard to not contact someone and I think I should play the feminine role. Men want to feel masculine right? They like a chase? I don’t want to be too available to him, especially since I don’t know what we are. I think we need to talk but I’m almost afraid because I really like what we have and I want to see us grow and I don’t want to end our hanging out, dating, or whatever. I just don’t know what to do, what to think, how to act, or what to say.