Date

I’m so nervous and so excited at the same time. I have a date (that what he’s calling it) on Saturday for my birthday. We’ve only been out once to Lunch and a movie (Amittyville.) Both times that we have gone out I’ve been so casual with jeans and a nice top with boots but this time he says that I have to dress up. No Jeans. I’ve asked him where we are going and he said a movie and dinner. Why do I need to get dressed up to sit in the dark for 2 hours. I really don’t know what to wear. Both of our favorite colors is blue but I don’t know if I have anything dressy that’s blue. I don’t even know what to do to my hair and as for make up, I think I’ll play it safe and go to a department store (depending on if I have time or not.) He says I may also meet his mom. He told his mom about me! I haven’t even mentioned his name around my house in the month that I’ve known him.

Anyhow, I’m trying not to have any expectations but of course I really can’t help it. What if this date is a total flop and a waste of time? What if this date is really fantastic and I like him and he is unavailable? I tried playing hard to get, I didn’t want to be too available to him so last week Thursday, Friday and Saturday I didn’t call him and I didn’t pick up the phone when he called. He freaked out big time that something terrible had happened. I guess we’re so accustomed to talking everyday that when I was unavailable he actually worried.  I really don’t know how I feel. It’s not my intention to lead anybody on or give any misguiding signals. I’ve been there and it would sucks. I guess we’ll just have to play it by ear. The only problem is that I have a hard time waiting. I like things done right away so if this guy likes me and doesn’t show me anything I’ll just have to move on.