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Perhaps its pure coincidence, but whenever I see Robert’s number in my caller ID or I hear his name or his voice, I get physically ill. I don’t know what caused it but one thing is apparent: I need to get him out of my life. I talked to him on Saturday night, he asked me if I was coming over but of course I said no. When I got home last night I saw that I missed his call so I called him back but it went straight to voicemail so either his phone was off or he was on another call. I could care less either way. He called me back about an hour or so later but I wasn’t home so I guess its my turn to call him back.

I’m noticing that he calls whenever he wants something, actually it wasn’t uncommon to spend our weekends together but that’s going to have to change. 1: I can’t believe I gave my virginity to him. How dumb could I be. 2: He likes to asks me over and since he knows that I eat, he figures that I can pay for him as well. TOUGH.  I can’t belive I trusted this asshole who promised that he would never hurt me. I guess its my fault for believing what he said.

I’d like to go back dating Jay. We met about a year ago and dated for a couple of months but I let him go because he asked me for shoes. Kind of superficial, but I wouldn’t ask someone I’ve known for a couple of months for shoes. He asked me if I could pick them up but didn’t mention any kind of reimbursement. I stopped returning his calls and emails. I truly miss him though and would love to start dating him again.

I wonder if eHarmony truly works because THE ONE has to be out there somewhere and I really want to meet him.