Welcome Back

It’s weird that opendiary is back. It’s weird seeing my posts from over 15 years ago and thinking back on everything that’s happened.

I stopped writing on OD around 2011. A lot has happened since then. I moved across the country and switched jobs. I left the industry that I thought I’d made a career in and I’m at a job that’s less dangerous, pays better, and has a better schedule, but is ultimately super boring and routine. I met a girl who I dated for four years before acknowledging that we wanted different things in life. That lead to me dating the woman I’m currently dating, which was entirely fucking unexpected. She’s great and I’m happy to have her in my life and to be a part of hers. I could talk about that a lot but it would probably get boring for anyone reading this.

At 32, and as a result of the super boring job, I realized I have ADHD. I got diagnosed and started taking meds. Someone at work praised me for my attention to detail yesterday, which is a first. It’s been a big, crazy revelation. So many of my actions and behaviors I now know are related to ADHD, either as coping mechanisms or just as a direct effect from it. It’s been a wild ride.

I’ve been traveling more with my partner, who is a great traveling companion. Turns out we love L.A., which was unexpected. We’ve gone twice now and can’t wait to get back. We also went to London last year, which was lovely. Every time we go somewhere new and love it we add it to the list of places we might move one day. We’re not ready to move, and knowing us, we might never move but it’s possible. Moving to the West Coast was scary but it was ultimately really good for me, I think. I’m a very different person than I was 7 years ago, and a very different person than I think I would have been if I’d stayed in NY.

It’s weird seeing how my good friends who stayed there have changed or not changed and the lives they’ve built for themselves. It’s weird not having been a very big part of the changes they’ve made and the steps they’ve taken. It’s weird that they haven’t been a big part of my life since I moved here. We still talk all the time but rarely ever getting to see them face to face is just different.

Anyway it seems most of the people I was in contact with via OD aren’t back but I’m excited to read what the ones who are have to say and to meet new people