Hot Mess!

 I am a hot mess, I’m just so screwed up and my emotions are way out of whack, I cry at everything and I just want to get these staples out of my belly so I can see how bad the scar is going to be.  I’m oozing from one of the staple sites, it’s a reddish colour, they said to watch for white pussy stuff if it’s an infection.  It’s not red around the site or anything so I don’t think it’s an infection.  

I was making myself something to eat last night and I had the fridge open and I stood up and banged my head on the freezer door and I just started bawling, crying so hard, right then my phone rang and it was my ex husband and he asked why I was crying and told him and he started to laugh saying I’m such a klutz..

I was just upset yesterday, even more so after a certain text I received, just made me cry even more, so I just went and laid down for a nap for a few hours, still woke up feeling sad.  

I got really really bad cramps after I ate, they hurt so much I could barely breath.  I finally went to the bathroom and felt a little better afterwards. I swear I’m never gonna eat again!!!

I can’t go outside, even if I could I can’t because of all the snow we got, and it’s still snowing, the roads are so bad.  I got a call from the HR department saying payroll was having some kind of system error but had gotten the ROE done and sent out Monday, so hopefully will get that by Friday.  I have to call UI today and see what I need to do once I have it, I think I can file online and will just need to drop the ROE off at the office.  I will need to go out next monday anyways to the doctors to get my staples out.

My pets are driving me nuts, moosey jumping all over the place, I need to have a pillow on me for protection at all times. Copper isn’t being too bad, he gets playing with the kitten, as long as they do it away from me I’ll be ok.  I can’t go to the bathroom without all three of them crowding into the small bathroom downstairs, moose tries to jump on me and twice now she has scratched me pretty bad.  Nik was being sick last few days, I think it’s because he has been eating the kitten food.  He jumped on the couch and puked on the throw blanket and then jumped down, like wtf, why couldn’t he just puke on the floor, so I had to wash the blanket.  I was sitting in the bathroom the other day and he puked just outside the door, I was on the toilet so I couldn’t get up to clean it and Moose kept trying to play in it, and I had to keep yelling at her to stay away from it.  They are so driving me nuts,, Mike said the nicest thing to me the other day, he said if he were here, he would bring me things, and he would tire out my animals for me so they would sleep and leave me alone, that’s got to the nicest thing anyone could do for me right now!

I just hope today will be better 🙁

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December 14, 2010

today WILL be better 🙂 thinking of you xoxoxo

December 14, 2010

aaaw honey it’s normal to feel down when our health is low. I remember feeling crappy when I removed a lump from my breast. What text are u talking about? You are so mysterious lately!! lol It’s like there’s a magnet in pets and places that would hurt us, Marley is like that too.

December 14, 2010

*hugs* Poor you. It’ll be worth it in the end! CD xxx

December 14, 2010
December 14, 2010

A small amount of oozing at the site is normal. There’s no doubt swelling there and its just the fluid coming out. Its actually a good thing because the swelling will go away faster than if you had to wait for your body to reabsorb that fluid. Just keep the site clean so you don’t get an infection. Too bad you can’t just put your pets in those plastic balls that they have for hamsters and letthem roll around all day. You’d be safe and they’d wear themselves out. And if they puked, it would be all over them. Haha! Mike is a sweetie!

December 14, 2010

My cat gets really stressed out when I’m upset/ill and starts throwing up herself… It’s like a sympathy thing. Do you have a Feliway plug in you can use?

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December 20, 2010

aww sweetie. ((HUGS))