HGTV

I am addicted to HGTV, I love the real estate shows, the ones where people redo their house on a small budget to sell it, or where the host finds a few places to either buy or rent and they have to chose one. I like seeing how you can redo a house or room on a very small budget.  If I was on that show, I wouldn’t want to sell my house after the redo lol, I’d be like "I love this, I’m keeping it" haha…. it’s pretty bad actually, my cable company even has HGTV on Demand so I can watch it anytime…. I need an intervention me thinks!

I went to the doctor and he told me to stay off work until after my surgery.  I have been feeling like my cyst is growing again, same symptoms, my belly is hard, I am very fatigued, no energy, cramping, and just an overall feeling of ickyness, like I just feel sick.  It’s hard tho because I do get my good days where I feel fine, but then it hits me and it’s all I can do to lay on the couch all day, seriously, it’s almost a workout to get up and pee, I have no appitite at all.  So he wants me off work because I seriously can’t do anything on my bad days, and I can’t keep taking time off work and only go in on my good days, wish I could but my job won’t allow that.  It totally sucks because I don’t make a lot of money on sick leave, and Christmas is coming up, I’m just getting caught up on my bills now.  My doctor knows I want to work, so he said to see him next week if I don’t go to the ER first, which he thinks I will end up doing because it’s the quickest way to get my cyst drained if they admit me into the hospital.  But if I don’t do that, then he will see about allowing me back to work til my surgery.  It’s just so hard because I’m so stubborn,  and I’m not sick every single day, because it’s just the first stages of the cyst growing again, not til it’s full blown that I’m sick every single day.  And I don’t want to go into the hospital and wait until they can get the time to drain me.. this totally sucks, I want my life back!