Dysphoria

I’ve been reading the OD rules and I’m pretty sure this entry shouldn’t violate rules, but if it does I’ll take it down.

I’m trying to do other things besides binge eat. I had dinner and that should be good, but I keep craving cookies, ice cream, and chocolate.

I opted out for some sexual self love. It was okay, but my dysphoria got in the way before I could enjoy the session. I know I can’t take Testosterone or have any surgeries because of medical reasons. Yet my dysphoria doesn’t go away just because of these facts.

I tried group therapy but it doesn’t help when I want some form of transition, but health reasons prevent it. The group tells me to find other alternatives and “make my own transitions”, but I really don’t understand how to start and how to be okay with dysphoria.

Stopped going to group. These dysphoria feelings just overwhelm me. Maybe CBT could help? I’ll see what my therapist says on Thursday.