My JD fantasy

Weight: 142.8

Yeah. don’t worry, that’s not going to last.  It’ll go back up in no time

When I graduated from college, my boyfriend Joe bought me one season of scrubs…which season that was I couldn’t tell you, because his 4 friends bought me the other 4 seasons. Apparently, the 5 guys went into best buy set on buying me a graduation gift, and they all came back with seasons of scrubs. They knew i liked it cause i always watched it on comedy central. I doubt they would have gotten me such an awesome gift if they knew why I loved the show so much. JD. Thats why I love the show so much.

It’s not zach braff I have the crush on. its the little jewish girl in me with her mother on her shoulder. The fantasy of the funny jewish doctor.  I just watched the episode of scrubs where Turk proposed to carla and JD was running around with sparklers.

It reminded me of this guy i once dated. Rob. Oh Rob. Before you ask, i never slept with rob. Boy I wanted to, but he cut it off with me before we got that far. Ouchies…but the story isn’t about rob and my lack of romance, its about our mutual friends, jiggy and ellen. They’re married now…but before they were married, Jiggy used to do really sweet things for ellen…I forget the nice thing that jiggy did this one valentines day, but i remember jiggy telling me about this one time rob hung lots of decorations for some annonymous nicety for ellen. I always remembered thinking, I wish to god I had that kind of romance in my life. I don’t want someone to try to buy my happiness, I just want to know the guy I’m dating cares enough about me to try.

If I’m lucky, Joe will cook me dinner(also for his family), wait until his family falls asleep, and lets me seduce him.  Ok. Joe is really good in the sack. when he wants to be, that is.  The thing is, most of the time, I’m not sure if he’s making me dinner because he loves me and wants me to eat, or because he’s starving and doesn’t want to go out. Joe has this policy of, "why go out, when I can make the food so much better." thats what he said when I took him to atlantic city, got a room at the borgata, and treated him to bobby flays.

Today I had dinner with joes best friend to discuss plans for his birthday. Bryan gave me the name of his shrink and i called him on friday to start therapy sessions. Bryan also likes to tell me about his relationship drama. today he confided in me that he loved hanging out with me and joe.  I confided in bryan that i was upset that joe and i weren’t friends, and he said, "come on L, don’t worry…his brother is married, his other brother is engaged…you’ve been dating for two and a half years…its only a matter of time."

God. I hope thats true. Does someone have to propose to you to know they care? god i hope not.

My JD fantasy. I want to marry my best friend. I want to marry a guy who feels about me the same way JD feels about elliot. but…not JD…he’s way to egotistical. The best thing about joe is that he’s as insecure as I am.

When I came to my bed tonight. i was 148…I hope thats just the water and fiber. please god, let it just be the water weight. all i had to eat today was triscuits, flavored rice cakes, a tuna melt, and oatmeal. really, for once, thats it.  I used that damn gazelle edge for like 3 hours. even though i’m pretty sure it does like nothing. but its better than sitting and eating popped corn. the elliptical will be here in 3 days…on joes birthday. thats also, my first day of therapy…

Tomorrow is my first intro to paralegal studies class. I hope it goes well.