I just want this to work
I am so sick of being heavier than most people. But the truth is, I made myself this way. There are just so many things that I want in life and being thin seems to be the corner stone to everything.
- I want to get married: Statistically speaking, thinner women or more likely to get married (Malloy, Why Men Marry Some women and not Others), but more importantly, I want to marry someone attractive, which means I have to date someone attractive, which means I can’t be a hypocrite and I have to be attractive myself.
- I want to be able to go shopping and fit into everything. Usually, the nicer stores only carry a few size 14’s. I want to be a 6 a 4 or a 2. I want to look effortlessly flawless in everything, so that the things that I buy are based on how nice they look and not just what is available.
- I want career satisfaction: Statically speaking thinner women are more likely to get more promotions. It might be something unconscious or it could just be men being assholes, but either way…
- I want to feel in control. It seems like my weight is the only thing in my life out of control. I want to take control.
- I want to live forever: This won’t happen, but I want to be healthy for as long as possible. That means eating right and keeping my blood chemistry in good condition.