03/12/2009

I was talking with Bryan yesterday about a strange feeling I’ve been having lately. About how I’ve been feeling particularly "lesbian"ish. I totally wasn’t understanding the emotion. It was like I’d been really wanting a lesbian relationship, but not really. Perhaps I just wanted to have a lesbian have a crush on me? I wanted more lesbian friends? I was really frustrated because I had no idea what was going on.

Bryan, that perceptive person, asked if perhaps it was not a desire for lesbians in my life, but, rather, female friends? Damn, that boy knows me better than I know myself. Not only is it true, but it explains a lot lately! I have, currently, two female friends (that I see on a somewhat regular basis), Sarah and Katrina. I’ve been kind of seeking female contact, I suppose. Also, it makes a lot of sense with my reactions to potential roommates. I kept shooting down good friends (John, for instance) for people (females) that I hadn’t even seen since high school. I guess I was just really wanting a female roommate? It all makes sense now.

The weather is so beautiful lately. The mountains are especially gorgeous. I never really appreciated the views in Salt Lake until moving into the dorms. Living in the foothills affords a much better view of the entire valley, and it’s wonderful. The mountains are either wonderfully sharp, white and purple against blue skies, or thoughtfully faded into the background, shrouded by fog, huge silhouettes against the valley foreground.  I love it.  I really need to start taking my camera with me to class.  Everything around here is gorgeous.

I am excited to go camping for Spring Break.  Bryan wanted to go to Goblin Valley, and I very much agree.  We’ve convinced Mark to go with us, and we’re hoping to find another miscreant to join in on our adventures.  It turns out that there’s also a large chance that Sarah will be camping the the very same area (namely, near Little Wild Horse Canyon).  What a wonderful coincidence!  We’ll have to work it out so that our camping overlaps and we can spend a day (or more) together.  Camping is always fun.  And I’ll get to use the bivvy bag* that Bronson gave me for Christmas!  We’ll see how it does!

One problem with Spring Break and camping is that I do not have a lot of money right now.  I’d totally spaced that I was going to have to provide food for myself over Spring Break, rather than using my meal plan.  Can I feed myself for three meals a day for a week?  Plus my share of gas money?  I’m going to the credit union today to deposit a check and put all of my cash into my checking account, and I’ll add up in my head how much I think I’ll need for the trip and for food for the whole week.  My options are dipping into savings or asking my parents for money.  I don’t like either one.

Given that the main expense is food, I don’t think it’ll be a problem to ask my parents for the money, but I don’t really feel okay with that.  I haven’t asked for money from my parents since junior high.  I don’t like being dependent on them for anything.  Also, though, they’re kind of already paying for my meal plan at the dorms…  I dunno.  I need to think about this a little more.  I’m going over to their house tonight, so we’ll see.

I haven’t heard back from Krysta about renting her house.  I really hope she’s still interested; it sounds like a fantastic set-up for us.  Nothing else particularly appealing has shown up on Craigslist or anywhere else.  I did get a call from this guy asking if we wanted to move in with him and his girlfriend, but it didn’t sound that great.  Their place was about a mile away from TRAX/The University (we’re willing to walk that far for a great place, but it didn’t sound fantastic).  Also, we don’t really want roommates.  Especially when they sound as unintelligent as the guy calling me.

We still have a lot of time to find a place, but I am getting a little nervous.  We plan on borrowing Bryan’s parents’ car on Saturday and driving around areas where we’d like to live, looking for For Rent signs.  I bet we’ll find something that way, also.  Adventures are fun!

Bluuh.  Period starts today.  Do not want.
(Better than the alternative, though, eh?)

OOOOoooooohh!  I’ve forgotten to mention it in here until now!  Kate (my peace lily) is growing yet another flower!  She has three!  This is so exciting for me, it’s unbelievable!  She’s never had more than one, and now she has three!  It’s not even like the flowers used to come around all that often.  I love how plants just know when it’s spring.  It’s pretty cool.  Also, speaking of plants, Peter Parker (my spider plant**) is not dying!  I think I’ve finally stabilized him so he won’t keep dying!  He’s even getting some new growth and has stopped smelling like rot and ammonia.  This is such good news!

So, anyway–  Why isn’t Spring Break here yet?  Gosh!  Hurry it up already, would ya?  😀

*I have no idea how to spell this.  And for those wondering, a bivvy bag is kind of like a shell for your sleeping bag that helps keep you extra warm and dry.
**Spider plants are notoriously hard to kill.  I fail at plants.