Feeling good :)
What’s up with that crazy guy sending dismembered body parts around? Finding out he was a porn actor was a bit of a kick. Hopefully they catch him soon cause hes trolling around Europe instead of here for now. Ugh. So apparently there was a video of him killing (the very LEAST horrid part of the description) online. And I went onto the site NOT to watch it …. I’m sorry but I don’t feel like being traumatized nor adding one more viewer to their count … but to read people’s comments … people are beyond desensitized and it’s pretty sick. I’m not naive … I know that at any given time there’s people being murdered or tortured or raped or what have you out there (like right now for instance)… but actually participating in watching it and then making comments that either praise the video/murderer or rag on the video for all the wrong reasons (like music) … like what the fuck is wrong with people? Also what the fuck is wrong with the police? They knew of the video in advance and didn’t bother following up on it. The poor victim’s family and friends :(. I can’t imagine what they’re feeling …
And on completely different note with none of the darkness of above …. (and more to the point of "feeling good")
Okay so it is the first day of June and the first day of living healthily? Yes I realize I wrote about that a month ago too. Lol. Anyways for once I took my meds (not serious meds, just a liquid thing), I still need to take my vitamins and supplements today, I’ve tracked all my food/exercise in my little log book, and I’m going for a workout later! Fit test, oi. I still need to take my measurements and my weight which I’ll do first thing tomorrow since I didn’t have time to do it this morning and it’s not opportune to do it after eating. And since I don’t trust my weight scale at home, I’ll ask my doctor next week to weigh me. Now I have to sort out my school schedule which I thought was perfect and upon second look I realize it didn’t make much sense. Ugh. It’s been torrential downpour like all day which is typical of Canadian weather – totally unpredictable. Oh the boy/man … young man? … i volunteer with is starting to make inappropriate comments lol. I put the lol because I couldn’t care less. But looking in HIS log book I think ALL of his therapists are working on "appropriate" conversation. They make him sound like he’s a little kid, poor guy! But I suppose he has to learn these social skills again after his neurological damage, poor guy AGAIN! Well … I just didn’t write in the log book; I don’t want him to be in trouble! Oh you know, I was looking on the sugar daddy site (lol, I know) and I was thinking it doesn’t seem so bad. It’s semi-funny, when I was younger, and reading classics, well I still read them, and I still think about it, I always wanted to be a companion. Although I always wanted to be a companion for some wealthy young lady (a paid best friend essentially)… they didn’t have female companions for the men in the book obviously. Apparently of all the universities in North America, mine is number 2 highest demand which is … good? I don’t know exactly because I don’t feel right making a judgment. Obviously it’s in exchange for tuition and book money and whatever else. Too bad it’s involving sex in the mix … I mean they can’t say it is … but come on …. lol. Anyways, I always thought I’d be a good companion … haha well at least for females … because being cultured was of utmost importance …. I dunno about the guys … being cultured may not be their top priority 😉