The Monthly Visitor

When women are around each other for a certain amount of time, they menstruate at roughly the same time. I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s the same with men.

LoGan and I were basically frustrated last night because we were both incredibly horny. I told him I could fix that for him, no strings attached, but he said that this was the beginning of his downward spiral and he wasn’t going to bring me down with him.

One: What downward spiral? Because he went over with Justin one night he thinks he’s now a slut. I tried to convince him otherwise.
Two: He said that he’s accepted his fate. I always thought his fate was to be a teacher in Boston. He believes it to be his whoring around.
Three: If only he knew how many guys I’ve been with. Kaden, Colten, Matthew, James, Cameron, Mustache Guy, Delivery Guy, White Shirt Guy, Kenneth, Eric, Ian, Old Guy, Nerdy Guy, and Albino Middle Eastern Guy. That may not seem like a lot, but for someone who values relationships over one night stands, this makes me sound like a real slut.
Four: There isn’t any whoring around. It was one night. But he wants to keep doing it.

And there, my friends, is where, believe it or not, we both stand. Last night while I was texting LoGan I got caught up in the moment and told him I could show him techniques with my dick that no others could. He refused to come over. So I invited Kenneth. He wanted to help clear my head, stating that he could converse with me and just walk around. Instead, I convinced him to just sit and talk with my room.

Lo and behold, Kenneth was also very horny. He took care of me and made me feel great. If it was all real or all fake, I don’t know. What I do know is that I had him fuck me. This is the first time I’ve had any kind of penis in my ass. And it felt great. I want more. I want so much more.

Since I started my Sexy for Birthday movement (I’m on day 10, P.S.) I’ve wanted to fuck everything human with a penis. EVERYTHING. All my coworkers, all the guys in movies, McDreamy, even fucking Mega Man. I can’t play video games without thinking about Balthier’s physique and how it would fit my ass perfectly. This is not okay! I can’t live with these feelings! I’ve been so horny and so sexually pent up that, to quote my favorite diva, "Shame on me to need release… uncontrollably. I wanna go all the way." Damn, Britney. She’s never expressed my feelings so well.

I’m to the point where I can fuck LoGan without it being awkward. I can do it. I want to do it. I want a lot of things.

I want penis.
I want hot, raunchy, sex.
I want to not put any effort into it.
I want weed.
I want euphoria.
I want cigarettes.
I want LoGan, and Belt Buckle Matt, and Justin, and Ian, and all my ex-boyfriends, and my manager, and my neighbor, and the boys on the other side of the building, and my roommate, and my fraternity Brothers… I want them all.
 

Kenneth left right after because he needed to go to work. It was six in the morning. Four hours is my record and we only went at it for three. I’m over Kenneth though. He may have made me feel great, but he wasn’t a good top. I need… aggressive. I want to lose control.

Problem. I don’t know how to do that.