I’m so tired…

Thursday night Keira decided to have a screaming session in the middle of the night (she was still sleeping) and she kept Dave and I up for atleast an hour. Then as soon as we were ready to fall asleep, she started again (she must have REALLY vivid dreams or something).  She finally got quiet, but then an hour later she was up wanting juice. AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!     I really need  a good night’s sleep. She always wakes up atleast once wanting a drink. She doesn’t always have night terrors, but when she does that screws the night up totally.  I don’t know what to do.  Then Dave kills me when I tell him we should let my parents take her one night on the weekend once in a while. He says " I love Keira and I like to have her around."  Ummm duh? I love her and love having her around too, but there’s a difference between being with her 24/7 and you coming home at 6 and going to bed at 10. So let’s see, I’m with her all day everyday and you seen her maybe four hours a day during the week.  I told him if I need a break, my parents can take her for a bit. I don’t know why I even bother saying anything to him because his answers are just so dumb sometimes. He doesn’t understand what it’s like to try to entertain a toddler all day long when you don’t have a car and the weather is crap outside. There’s only so much coloring she wants to do, you know ?  Thank God the weather is getting better now atleast so we can go outside for a bit.  Canada is looking better and better to me right now. Dave will be working less (getting paid more), and Dave’s dad has an old Land Cruiser I can use until we buy another car. This means I’ll NEVER be stuck in the house unless I want to be. Sounds good to me!!!  Like I’ve said before, the the only thing I’m not looking forward to is telling my family about this. I’m getting more confident that this is what will be better for our family and I’m not going to let them try and convince me that it’s a mistake. I’m sure there will be an intervention once they find out, and I’m prepared for it.

Ok enough bitching for now. I had my CAT scan yesterday and it wasn’t a big deal. I won’t have my results until the beginning of next week, which stinks because now I have the whole weekend to be worried about it. I think everything will come back fine and that’s what I’m hoping for.  I just have to relax and not think about it. 

Dave’s at work now, but he’s going to try and leave there at 11. I don’t get my hopes up anymore about that either because last weekend he was "going to be home at noon" and he wasn’t home till almost two. Ahhh stupid work!!!! Ok my bitchfest is over. I’m going to go and get Keira and me cleaned up. It’s supposed to rain today, but it’s already in the mid 50’s and it’s not even noon yet!!! I love spring!!!