nacho cheese and anarchy

laying in bed alone…i hate it! blah blah blah but anyway other than that life is grand 🙂 🙂 i have to be up early tomorrow for work…its my 10 hour day but the weeks halfway over after tomorrow!!!! yay for this weekend. bay-bee is staying the night with me again this weekend!!! he actually stayed the night with me last  night which was weird since it was a work night! but he just cant stay away haha ummmm sunshine is pissing me off a little bit since she got back with her husband. i know that sounds horrible but seriously i dont know if shes just letting him control her again or what’s going on but im lost without her! then to top that situation off my ex husband calls me and was with her husband and my ex started yelling at me and telling me how i ruined his life and i owe him an apology blah blah bliggity blah he’s a f*cktard!!!! anyway my baby picked out my ring…my "pre-engagement" ring haha its just a cute little silver band and i finally got him to settle for it because its adorable and looks really cute and i can wear it forever but he wanted to get me something crazy and i had to stop him before i wound up with something excessive. not that i wouldnt totally appreciate it but i know he wants to do the whole real proposal thing right and i dont want to take anything away from him. i’ve done all this before and its hard for me sometimes to realize that this is all new to him and i have to let him take all the joy in the small things that ive already experienced. and when i can remember that we really connect and the special little moments just happen!!! last night we hung out with his brother…very awkward for me for a bit because his brother gets a little crazy around me sometimes….we have a serious love/hate relationship. somedays i cant stand him and he cant stand me and others its just like he is my little brother who i love and feel like ive known forever. last night it was a good night tho and im soooo glad because i hadnt hung out with him in forever!!! he actually said he is excited to have me for a "real"  sister. and when i was leaving he was like what no hug for your brother…so that made me happy that he is happy for me and aaron because i really 100% love all of aarons family and they’ve all treated me soo good and especially his mom and his brother, they both really helped me with my divorce and supported me even when i wasnt sure if i could handle this relationship with aaron. but in that situation neither of them, especially  josh (he was definately in favor of me getting away from my ex), turned away and expected me to go through it alone. i always knew and still know i can talk to them! thank god these not-so-soon-to-be in-laws are normal!!! haha i feel ridiculous going through all this again sometimes but then i think how much was in mine and aaron’s way when we first met, i mean i was still married and had no intention of ending that. and i did and it had absolutely nothing to do with aaron but he was just there and it all fell into place!!! awwww now that im all in a squishy mood im gonna go drool over the sweetness of my man and think about how much i love him!!!!