uneasy feeling.

Memory called me, we had a ok talk I guess. It confirmed that she was drunk for our last phone calls because whoever called me today sure wasn’t the woman I spoke to last time. She denies being drunk even though her husband told me she was…. ridiculous.

Anyway i’m supposed to meet her Wednesday with Mike at Smittys for around 6pm, and I don’t want to go. I have this uneasy feeling about it, there is no peace, i’m nervous and scared…

ugh God help me.

We kinda got into some things, she kept telling me her faith wasn’t a religion and that its a life style and i told her that her beliefs were nto welcome around my children. I do not want them to go to pow wows, or smoke grass ect. i did say that when they are old enough and ask questions to be truth full but not to purposley go around telling them about it, or taking them to the ceremonies… I told her we have a faith and thats that.

She was a totall different person. she claims she has only been drinking for 8 years but everyone i know will say thats a huge lie and that she has been drinking since her boys were young.

She says she will never live up to my standards (what a Shaun thing to say) and that i’m being ridiculous and that i need to study addictions. She said shes feeling punished for her tiny mistake.

Not once did she apologize, infact when i brought up being called a narsastici hypocrite or how she called down my parents and said hwo it was so unfortuante for them to be brought up by them. she told me that she felt things needed to be said….

I don’t want to go, i dont’ want to see her I don’t want my kids around her she is not a good person. A part of me just wants to see if she’ll take me to court.

ugh… what do i do? what do i do?

She is a baiter.