We Are, We Are All Innocent…

My Dearest Readers,

Everything is over now. I’m doing alright all things considered. I’m not as bad off as I thought I would be at this point. Honestly I’m not doing that good. I’m mostly just trying to convince myself to be okay and to be good just long enough for all of this stress to settle in to place. I know that the break down is coming, and I know I won’t be able to hold back the tears once they come but for now I am okay. Nova’s doing alright, he’s been acting pretty weird. I guess that makes sense. I just miss him, you know? I want everything to be okay just for a little while. That’s all I really ask. As if everything I went through this past weekend wasn’t enough I also had a doctors appointment for a lymph node ultrasound on my hip/groin area and a dentist appointment to fix a cavity.

 The doctor’s appointment was alright, I had to go back on Monday to get blood drawn and I have to go back again on Thursday for a needle biopsy. The doctor said that most spots looked happy and normal but there were some spots that didn’t look so good. I’m sure there’s nothing super wrong but it still worries me a little…plus I don’t particularly like needles very much. Lucky I get to be sedated for this. Wish me luck, I guess. The dentists appointment was okay. They started drilling before I was numb and had to give me an extra shot. That was okay…aside from the fact that I almost had a panic attack. All in all things are alright on the health front. I still don’t feel quite right but I’m sure 

 Guess what, you guys! I only have…Two more days of school left? Yes! Then the semester is over and I can finally take a breath. There seems to be just a massive build up of stress in my life at the moment. Maybe just maybe when school is over every thing will settle in to place and I can unwind for just a little while. That sounds like a plan to me. 

 I’m so sorry about keeping you all in the dark about what was going on last week/last weekend. The trouble is that I have some people who don’t need to know things reading my diaries. I’m choosing to keep my entries public, though. I’m going to post everything that is going on/was going on in a friends only entry so if you want to be able to read that you should either already be on my friends list or ask me about it. I love each and every one of you with all of my heart. Good night for now, and sleep soundly.

~♥EmieLove♥~