Updates, Thoughts, and a little bit of pain.

My Dearest Readers,

It’s 4:07AM.

I’m tired, but I can’t sleep.

Hmm, This happens often though.

I have a lot on my mind.

Ninja’s leaving on the 22nd, and I don’t know if I still want to be with him when he leaves. At the same time though…I don’t know if I have the heart or the balls to break up with him. I don’t want to hurt him. Grah…I don’t know if I want to be with him or not. It’s so…confusing…and it hurts me a lot. but I don’t want to talk too too much about this…it makes me think about it more then I already am.

Nova and I have been talking at night again, and Ninja’s fine with it. His only request is that I don’t talk longer than an hour. I get why, and everything, but to me it’s relatively pointless. Nova and I have been talking about my issues with ninja, and he’s actually helping me a lot. I’m helping him with all of the stuff that’s going on in his life too, and everything, but like…Idk. It feels REALLY good to have someone like him who I can talk to. About everything. [Excluding Alpha from the mix at the moment].

Ah, Alpha. She and Finward are together again and he isn’t going home until August 26th this time. Well, That’s all fine and dandy, and everything…but I feel like I probably won’t be able to talk to her much until after he leaves. I’m okay with that, though. Just thought I’d let that thought out.

I really really really want to talk to Protector, but that’s relatively impossible these days. I’m sure he has more important things to deal with then my petty issues anyway. Same goes for Bunny, actually. I haven’t talked to either of them in a while…Like REALLY talked. Hmm…

I get my wisdom teeth out on Wednesday… That’s actually kind of terrifying for me. I’m scared, but I’m not going to admit to fear, it’s useless to be afraid in the first place.

Senior night is Thursday, So I get to get my school schedule…Wow…My LAST year in High school. It’s crazy. But I’m a big fish in a little pond, and that makes me happy.

School starts on August 24th.

My birthday is August 25th.

August is a busy month.

For now, I need sleep.

I’ll talk to you tomorrow, Readers.

I love you.

~♥EmieLove♥~