Trying Hard To Fight These Tears, Im Crazy Worried

My Dearest Readers,

I have kind of been avoiding writing at all costs. I should be updating you at this point, but I’m not. I just… I guess I needed someone to talk to.

My (sister’s) hamster, Theodora Roosevelt, has wet tail.(for those of you who don’t know, wet tail is hamster diarrhea that can turn out to be fatal, and does in most cases. They have it for two weeks before they even start to show signs of it. They usually get it from stress and it is EXTREMELY contagious to other hamsters.) It started off with just the diarrhea, and we gave her some Gatorade to try to rehydrated her some. The next day I went out and bother some wet tail drops. She started leaking pus and she stopped cleaning herself. We gave her the drops the next day but there was a little bit of blood. Yesterday it was all blood. The drops aren’t helping, and she may very well die any day now. 

Teddy is the mamma bear. She gave birth to 12 babies in one litter, and all but one made it into adult hood. She mothered Leah (Lay-Uh) DaVinci and Buzz Lightyear, for those of you who remembered them. She’s dark orange. She’s the eater…she’d eat anything. Crackers are her favorite. She is sweet and gentle and she can brighten anyone’s day–even at a time like this.  Everyone thought she was a boy at first, but she’s definitely the sweetest of the girls. She’s beautiful. She’s taught me everything I know about hamsters. There is not even one person walking this earth right now that doesn’t like her. She’s just jam-packed full of personality. 

I have been trying my hardest to brace myself, but there is no amount of bracing that can be done for this kind of pain. Mamma bears aren’t supposed to be vulnerable…they are supposed to be strong, immortal, invincible, Indestructible, powerful, intimidating, and protective. I cant imagine any kind of world without her in it, you know? This is rough on all of us. This won’t end well for anyone but her. No more pain, no more sick, no more fear. Just light, happiness, and love. Lots and lots and lots of love.  

That’s all for now, readers… .

Goodnight, I love you.

~♥EmieLove♥~