I’m Still Here!!!

My Dearest Readers,

I came to tell you about what’s going on. I’m sorry that I’ve been gone, and I hope some of you still care enough to read my entries. I know that I’ve been gone. I just didn’t know what to say before or even how to say it. April has been weighing on my mind quite a bit but I don’t know how to tell you about that either. There is just so much that I need to get out of my head and off of my chest. Are you ready? Maybe not. This is going to be a long entry, I believe, at least that is my goal. 

School is going less than alright right now. I know I’m not doing so hot in Bio, Lab, Philosophy, or History. I know my public speaking grade is at least a B, though. As far as grades go, I would rather not talk about it. Midterms are coming up and I hope that I can manage to bring all my grades up by then. From this point on I’m going to work much harder than I have been. It was unintentional in the first place. I just let some things get ahead of my schooling and they became priority. Now that I’ve gotten everything straight my goal is to pretty much work my ass off until the semester ends. Next semester I WILL do better. This is my second year of college, I should have had my shit together from the start. Oh well. I guess I’ll just have to work super hard from here on out.

Speaking of school, I’ve spent quite a bit of time there considering I’m there for 12 hours on Wednesdays. I’ve made some great new friends and re-met some great old friends. I have been hanging around some of the people that I met last semester, It’s awesome. I’ve spent quite a bit of time with someone I will from now on refer to as Dragon. Sometimes we just talk and sometimes we watch movies together. Dragon is probably the person I talk to the most at this point. It makes me pretty happy. I have so much I want to tell you all about him but I think I’ll save that for another entry. I’ve recently gotten back in to Magic: The Gathering which is pretty cool. Many of my school friends play and I think it’s awesome. Most of the time I just watch and leave my deck in my bookbag but othertimes I play too, it’s nice. Two of my friends and I sat in the library and watched Tangled together for no real reason aside from we had nothing better to do and we wanted to. That’s what’s awesome about college, even if it’s just community college. We can pretty much do whatever we want (with few exceptions) and no one really cares as long as we aren’t disrupting anyone else. I should elaborate on more things about school but I just don’t want to right now.

Also, SuperNova and I broke up. It wasn’t working out for a good few reasons. Honestly I don’t even want to talk about it. I’m just so angry and there’s nothing I can do about it. I don’t want to hurt him or anything like that but I want him to know about the things that have made me angry. I don’t even care. I’m not going to ever tell him. It all goes back to a few moths ago. That’s something I want to tell you all about but I just don’t know how right now. I still need to sit down and talk to someone about every detail. I think I know who I’ll pick too. Anyway. I guess you could say it was a bad break up. I’m afraid that this will mean that I can no longer talk to Ninja as well as Nova. I miss his family. I haven’t been able to stop by and say hi lately. I’ve been crazy busy with school. I don’t want to talk about Nova anymore. I have a whole lot to say but honestly I feel like he’ll read this or someone who knows him will tell him I said something and I just don’t want to deal with the drama of it all. 

OpenDiary doesn’t feel like the safe place it used to be but I don’t want to make all of my entries friends only. I could start a new journal but I like this one too much for that. Oh well, I’ll just stay here and continue to monitor each and every thing I say. Speaking of which, If you’d like to keep in touch with me, comment and I’ll give you my full name so you can find me on facebook. Or if you really want to know how everything is every day I can give you the url to the place I moved my thoughts to when OD became unsafe. Just comment and let me know.

Anyway that’s all I’m going to say for now, I believe. I’ve got a killer headache and I would really like to try to sleep. 

I love you all! I promise to keep in touch. And if I forget, as I said before I have two other websites I can give you.

~♥EmieLove♥~
On the offchace that you read this and see this line I would just like you to know that I miss you a whole freaking lot, I’m doing okay, and if it would be okay with you I may try to visit relatively soonish. What do you think?