worrying..its what i do best

The trip to China is fast approaching.  The more  I think about it, the weirder it is.  I can’t  believe i’m going to CHINA.  I never go anywhere! I’ve been on a plane twice in my life (to and from california).  Dr. Holcomb told doug and I that we both get to play our concertos on tour at least once. Im so..so excited, i’m making my international debut haha.

–side note–i apparently dropped chocolate down my shirt just now..and its melted on me..didnt realize it..had an itch, and just smeeeared it all over me.  just incase you needed a laugh..

Anyway..so yeah, China..I started thinking about the actual flight today..i’m not sure exactly how long it is, has to be at least 12 hours.  Then i started worrying about..what if they lose my bags? i’d die..10 days in freaking china with no stuff…Then theres the what if the plane crashes thing.. then i was talking to my mom about the bathrooms, i’ve never used a bathroom on a plane..(i held it when i went to california..yeah..thats right..bladder of steel) however..i don’t think i can hold it for 12+ hours.  I said.."well where does it go when you flush.." my mom said "storage compartment things.." EW… huge storage compartments filled with 20 peoples pee, and possibly poo…EW. then she said "sometimes they have to empty it while in flight…but it freezes bc youre so high up..so its like a big..blob of frozen shit/pee.  Can you imagine…a brick of frozen poo dropping in your yard……i think i just threw up in my mouth a little.  I know they probably drop them in water…or in fields if possible..but still..thats sick! 

Im also worried about the food…I hope i dont get sick from something. Cant drink the water, no ice cubes, shouldnt eat salads either.. i dont want to eat junk for 10 days..i hope i can find some stuff thats not too bad:~/ i am picky..I will branch out and try new stuff..im just worried i’ll get sick..

I had a dream last night about scott.  We were kissing, and he didn’t laugh, it was nice….Then i was in fredonia and on the phone with him, and kateybeth was there randomly, he kept asking me a question like a "how do you feel about ..mumble mumble mumble" couldnt understand him..he asked me like 3 times, and i couldn’t hear him. It was something about us dating though.  Im pretty sure he was going to say he wanted to try dating, and…..then i woke up..how ironic huh.. I was very angry when i woke up..

well..law and order is on..i have to go..ahahaha