sad

so..scott broke up with me. And what fantasic timing he has..as i have midterms this week.. SWEET. (for details if youd like to know..plz follow me to the favs entry..thank you..drive through)

I had my sight singing exam (aka sight screaming..aka fright singing..whichever you prefer) this morning. I did fine..the teacher told me like “in the B+ – A- range” which is OKAY with me. I hate sight singing exams more than anything here. Its not that i cant do them..its just theyre so nerve wracking for me. They make me more nervous than anything..and sometimes i screw up a lot if i cant get my nerves under control.

Im supposed to be playing in this class recital my teacher is having (march 21st 8pm..come!) but i cant find anyone to accompany me! ..freaking out a bit..since its only like 3 weeks away. Ive asked like four people and theyve all said..too busy..no time. I would have asked sooner but originally i was going to play a different piece..harder parts for me and the piano. But..we decided against that cause i couldnt find anyone to play that piano part either. (which is ok..cause im having a hard time with it..and i dont think i would have been ready.)

I have a conducting test on thursday…im really hating conducting. I dont feel like im getting any better. We had to switch teachers from the ones we had last semester..and i didnt want to:~/ i like her a lot better..i wanna go back to her class. The guy i have now..is this scrawny little italian guy..who you could break over your knee..no lie. Sometimes hes ok..but today..i wanted to smack him. He just kept picking on me (and everyone) today, and wasnt being nice about it. (wrong day to pick on me:~( ) there was some slight attitude on my part..but idc..he was being an ass. And besides..it was either that, or start crying..and i was close.

i cant wait for spring break……