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I have a feeling my friends from home….well….that kind of means everyone, cause most of my close fredonia friends dont go here anymore..but i have a feeling ive been ignoring them..not intentional of course.. ik i didnt see anyone over break, but i worked everyday except one, and the minute i had free time i just wanted to do nothing..and relax. i dont want anyone to think i dont love u guys:~( i doooo..this year has sucked real bad..work load wise..and personal life wise. im having a hard time, and i feel very alone lately. so thats what im being..alone..and ive been shutting things/ people out i think. :~/ ive had to be on my own here a lot more lately..its different for me..and when i go home even its just like..im on “automatic” and i just want to be alone..cause im used to it now. Not that i dont wanna hang out with people..i do. so im sry if anyone feels like ive been shutting them out or something..i dont mean to..im just trying to get through the rest of this semester..so i can come HOME..if u havent guessed..fredonia isnt fun anymore…next year will be better here..but this year..this semester specifically has sucked..and i guess this is how ive been trying to deal with it. when i come home i think it will be better..i can forget about school..and the other bad stuff that has happened..and get back to being me..and hanging out with u guys of course..so please dont hate me:~/ ive just been real busy..and not myself lately..it has nothing to do with me like, not wanting to see you guys..or not caring about u guys anymore.