poop

I’ve been in a weird mood the past few days. Im just really unmotivated to do anything. idk..i usually go through phases like this i guess i shouldnt be surprised.

sometimes i feel like if everything…absolutely everything in my life isnt going how i want it to..or im not happy with something..it throws everything else off. Theres definitely a couple things im not happy with right now.

I know i balme myself for some things that happen that i shouldnt. Specifically with other people. Trying not to say more than i want to here…When i feel rejected in any way…i always assume its something ive done. I probly shouldnt do that….but i cant help it. I think i make myself too available sometimes. I just get frustrated because i try so hard (with people) and sometimes they just don’t care. I dont know how to explain it without being specific…so im sure this just sounds like babbling. I felt like i should write a public entry though..ive been making them all fav’s only lately..i know all of you that read it that arent able to see my fav’s only entrys were dying with anticipation…wondering what ive been up to…ha…ha…..kidding…

idk..i just feel like poo lately, and theres nothing i can really do about the situation that is making me feel poopy…i feel helpless. ..ugh..