holy school…

So im back in fredonia….yay….. let me start back at the beginning of last week.

i got back here last sunday, thinking my friend tilah was going to move in with me, cause kateybeth transfered….but…SURPRISE!!! fredonias retarded, and screwed something up, so i have a brand new roommate. She is nice and everything..i just wasnt prepared for the whole get to know you game again..it was a surprise…and you know i dont like change.

Now that classes have started..im feeling overwhelmed. Especially today..i had six classes today…its just like..the day never ends. I feel like i have no time to do anything..not even hw! and when i do have a spare second i just wanna pass out for awhile:~( not have to go practice or do hw. Its one of those days today where i just wanna quit..and i ask myself over and over..why am i doing this? I hope this is just the beginning of the semester..shit..or something, i had a really rough time last semester in the beginning too..i hope it passes…QUICKLY.

Next…my computer broke..yesterday…its sad..but icant live without that thing. Its like my main way of communication to the outside world. (the outside world being anywhere but fredonia)so im in the library now.. The moniter is busted…idk how… it just wont turn on. So theyre sending me a new moniter…in 10 business days…..thats like two weeks!!!! im gonna go nuts.

I wish i had more time to write, but i have to go do like 56134886 years worth of hw….so i’ll just briefly go through this next bit…

The thought of leaving fredonia, is becoming somewhat appealing to me. For a number of reasons i guess.. Its just not fun for me here anymore. Kateybeth is gone, so i dont feel like i have any good friends here anymore, and that is huge for me. I neeeedddd to have friends around to keep me sane here. Scott..will probly be going…far away:~( he’ll leave for the summer, and then from there go to school somewhere. He wants to go to florida…..:~( I never see him as it is right now…so this just makes it seem impossible. That is another reason i started thinking about leaving. Ok well..thats what put the idea in my head honestly. The more i think about it tho, the more unhappy i think i am here. Im killing myself here..its sucking the fun out of something that i love to do. I dont know if it would be any different anywhere else…but…thats something id have to find out. Back to scott…..its just very…discouraging to me, to think that id only see him a few times a year really. HOW..could we stay together based on that? Im not saying i want to break up with him by any means…I know ive still got awhile to think about this..but i am considering it..leaving.

id love to go back and forth on this more…and get out every single thought in my head on this..but i have to go do hw :~( fredonia…is sucking real bad right now.