funk..

I haven’t written a public entry in quite awhile..i don’t know if anyone other than the people on my fav’s list reads this anyway….but o well

So a lot has happened since i last wrote. like…my recital! Im satisfied i guess with how it went. There were some really good things..and some not so good things..but i expected that. the only reason im not extatic about it is because some things that went badly…i practiced really hard..and had played them a lot better when i was practicing than i did in my recital:~/ I know that some of that has to be expected…..but it still sucks:( Oh well..its over,i am happy with it over all..and i still have another one to do next year:)

on to the funk.. I’ve been in a funny mood..the past week or so. Theres been some changes..and we all know how i hate change. I brought it on myself i suppose..but i had to, i wouldn’t have been being fair to myself if i let things continue the way they were. The worst part about all of this is i feel like i’ve lost a good friend in the process. That part however..i don’t think is my fault…no i know it isn’t. I liked what we had..and i feel like im being pushed away now..just little things theyre doing…funny how the smallest things can hurt the most.. Its mostly just confusing for me..my friends reaction to this..i thought they would have been more sensitive towards me..since i know that they have been in my shoes in the past..i just feel sad lately..

on a brighter note..my birthday is in 2 days!!!!!:) I will be 21 come midnight tomorrow! and i plan to be drunk….very drunk:) so if anyone would like to come out tomorrow night with me and my friends, give me a calllllll!

well i should get back to work..lots to do..finals are in a week…

i can’t wait to go home..