!! :~)

sooo this past week has been kind of hell-ish…and i think im being modest when i say that. Its mid terms time around fredonia..so everyone is losing their minds basically.

BUT! We had Larry Combs and Julie DeRoche come here this weekened to play with us at our wind ensemble concert on saturday night. (they are two clarinetists from the chicago symphony..aka KIND OF a big deal:~D) First on sat. afternoon they had a master class with us. There were 6 of us who played for them and then they critiques us//offered constructive ciriticism. I played a solo ive been working on for awhile now…and basically i almost pooped my pants i was so nervous lol. I think i played pretty well though. They said that i need to play with more expression..not a shocker to hear..i kno i do..I was real nervous so im pretty sure part of me was just “playing it safe” when i was up there too. He worked with me on a couple spots with like specific phrasing, and had a couple comments about articulation. Over all it was good:~) When we were walking mr. combs and ms. deRoche to the car, she said to me “you are going to be very good, but you need to play from the heart….” and that made me feel good and bad. Good because Julie DeRoche just told me im gonna be good!!:) and bad because i dont really know how to fix the problems i have..”play from the heart”….idk..i might go talk to dr holcomb (my band director) because i have this same problem with everything i do here, and i think a lot of it is just my personality. I don’t know how to change it.:~/ I do think ive pretty much made up my mind that i want to persue performance though, like, in grad school..im going to go for performance..not education. I know i’d have to be really amazingly good to make it as a player, but…it’s what i want to do. I don’t know that i would be happy teaching in like… a public school setting. But i do know that i <3 playing..and id be happy if i got to do that as my JOB for the rest of my life.