:~(

So this weekend sucks the big one… i have a dress rehearsal for my concert in like a half hour…the concert is tomorrow. sunday i have another rehearsal for a concert we have on monday night. ugh.. scott might be coming..i want him to, but he doesnt wanna stay the night if he comes tomorrow cause theres something at his church i guess he doesnt wanna miss.:( its been like three weeks since ive seen him:*( most people cant go a week without seeing their bf/gf..i hate it. i miss him a lot. i really wonder a lot if he ever misses me…he just doesnt tell me he does…idk. ..if he comes tomorrow..the concert is at four..but he has to work in the morning til..? if he comes to the concert..my mom is coming so im sure we’ll go out to eat after..by then it will probly be around 7 and he’ll most likely leave around then or shortly after..cause its a long drive.:~( i want him to come but its almost pointless. he mentioned maybe coming on monday instead..which would be fine, but just as equally shitty because monday and tuesday are busy days for me, and i know i wouldnt get to see him a lot just cause i have like 5 million classes, especially tuesday. plus he has to work monday morning til…? i would at least get to spend the night with him that way..but still……idk..im just sad..and pissed off cause my whole weekend is going to be rehearsals and concerts. all my concerts are on weekends its stupid. Plus this weekend is little sibblings weekend at fredonia..so theres children running all over the place……yay……. id have just gone home…or maybe to scotts..but noooooo stupid ass concerts… plus theres no intervisitation this weekend (no one allowed to stay here who doesnt live in my dorm) so id be sneaking scott in anyway. sigh..i just wish i could see him more regularly:~( makes me sad.

time for rehearsal..shoot me now..it wouldnt be so bad but i really dont like any of the music we’re playing…..

sorry about the bitch fest…but i feel like poop.:(