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so..i know i have issues…with not feeling like i am good enough at school and stuff..i really dont want this to start spilling over into my personal life..like the non school related stuff. Every girl including myself most definitely, has their insecurities about their bodies..looks..personality flaws, everything..you name it. I dont like feeling like i am not good enough..lately its been an issue..im talking like, me, not school wise. guys flirting with other girls, bothers me. If youre my bf…i dont want u to flirt with other girls..call me crazy. im sitting here..really trying to justify it, and i cant..like well, if youre really close friends with a girl..or even if its one of my close friends,and we all joke around like that..but it still keeps like, flashing a red light in my head, like, no..that doesnt make it ok. It really makes me feel not good enough. Like everything you say to me, you say to other girls, without even thinking about it. So i guess it doesnt mean anything when u say it to me..silly me for believing it did i guess. im exagerating a little bit here, but thats how it makes me feel. and i dont like it. Girls should feel like they are something special to their boyfriends, that they have something every other girl doesnt..that he wants..and i cant say that feeling is 100% present here. which makes me more sad than mad honestly. I am an easy person to hurt..it doesnt take much to make me upset if you know how to do it. All girls are i guess. idk..im not going to tell someone how they can and cant act with their friends..but on the other hand..this upsets me. i know i am very insecure about myself..and that shouldnt be his problem, but..idk..stuff like this doesnt help me exactly. well..this isnt a happy topic..so im done writing about it.