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thats whats been going through my head all day..for lack of a better word. These past two days, have been so jam packed its ridiculous. Thank GOD tomorrow is friday…i do have tons to do this weekend…and a concert to play on sunday..but its still better than the weekdays.

Now..on to what ive been meaning to write about..but havent had the time to.

For those of you reading this who go to fredonia..(particularly music majors) will totally get this, if not, well..u can probly imagine, its not a terribly in depth..thing. Ive just been noticing lately how its like another world when i walk through the doors of Mason hall…Its so weird. You walk through the halls and all you hear is music. People practicing..ensembles..whatever. Since this year, all i have is music classes, i don’t go anywhere else but mason, and when i do, i feel terribly out of place. There is a distinct separation from the music majors and the non music majors here. I have been opening up a bit more lately to some of my fellow clarinet nerds..i’ll admit it we are hardcore band geeks..we can’t help it..its like a disease. But anyway..I have been feeling so much better here lately. I am busy as hell..but just talking to them, and being around them, giving me someone to relate to here has helped so much. I really didnt hang out with any other music majors last year. It wasnt intentional..i just became really close with my roommates and i was always with them. Plus i am shy..that doesnt help either. Now i loved (most of them) to death (roomates), but its just different..cause they dont understand. That goes for anyone really..i dont mean for this to sound..rude?..but people just don’t understand our..lives? i dont know how to put it. I would almost say that i have more respect for the music majors here..than just “regular” students. I dont know how to say this without it sounding vein or..just condescending. But i cant stand it..when i hear other people bitching about their classes…Now im sure they have lots of stuff to do too..but i’ll bet we have more. And people who have the luxury of only having two classes in a day…and they first one being at NOON..really makes me want to hit people when they say “ahhh yeah..i was SO tired today..i didnt go to class.” im like….WHAT….i have class at 8 everyday, as many of us do..well..the entire sophomore class to be exact..and i manage to drag my ass out of bed everyday to get there. And its not like i can go back to bed after. Today..i had class from 8-3..did homework til 5..dinner, sectional for wind ensemble at 6, practiced, did my theory lab, went to a concert and just got back here at 9pm. thats a 13 hour day folks..which would explain my irritation with the slackers here. Its just like..you have it easy…take advantage of it. Now, i know i chose this…and although its rough i wouldnt change it..Theres nothing else id rather do. I just need to vent now and again.

I suppose thats all for now..i know theres more i want to write, but im just too tired..maybe tomorrow

time to pass out! finally!