Christmas blues

Man… when did it become Christmas Eve? December is an insane month and I can say the same about 2017 as well.

I work in an office that processes property taxes,  which are due in April and December. We ended up working a fair amount of overtime there, making me decide to step back from writing for a bit. I can’t balance it along with the other things I try to do throughout the month. The only problem with that is I’ve become a lazy ass! I need to get back into gear.

Today was unique. I attended a Christmas Eve church service with the daughter and it was nice. I’m not overly religious at all but it made me wonder how much faith does for a person. I don’t want to be the girl that goes every Sunday like clockwork and I have faith in other things as well. I don’t think I could choose just one higher power to believe in. I’m all over the place but I’d love to have faith in something. I feel like I lose more every day. After that, we went to the cemetery where my grandparents are. She never met them. We wandered a bit and straightened flowers and Christmas decorations up before saying hi. I cried because I miss them so much. Christmas with them was wonderful.

I took her to lunch after that. She gave a homeless man her sandwich and I added two bucks to that. It was sweet. She didn’t seem to think twice about it.

I’m just sitting here now. Not writing. Just feeling a little down for whatever reason. The holidays typically do this to me.

I’ll perk up tomorrow. Merry Christmas to all of you or whatever you might celebrate!!