Am I dreaming?

I can’t believe that I am logged in here and posting again. I visited some old entries last night and almost cried reading them. I downloaded all of them when OD initially shut down but that was a few computers ago and I have no clue where everything is now.

I was a different person back then. I kind of miss her because she was so optimistic and happy. She loved life. I don’t hate it now but it’s hard. I am working two jobs but one is writing, which I love. I can’t believe I get paid to write books for people and still have a little time to work on my own stuff. I am a lazy ass about that a lot of the time but if I am going to work two jobs, then I am going to have one that I am passionate about. The office job gives us benefits and something of a retirement for me and it is the adult thing to do.

I am looking forward to seeing old friends again and reconnecting. I want to hear all about your lives. I want that feeling that only OD gave me, even though I did find some good friends and a home at LJ temporarily. Nothing will replace OD for me.